Experienced mature wants to date a man

I'm not getting the attention I'd hoped for from my boyfriend. So I have to find a warm man who can give me that and who's interested in seeing each other regularly.

My boyfriend really enjoys it when I role-play with another man. If you try really hard, because I'm the dominant one, I'll even pee on you several times. My boyfriend doesn't interfere; he just watches, enjoys, and masturbates.

I've had a lot of bad luck with relationships in the past, and I'm currently in a relationship that feels more like a brother-sister relationship. Ideally, I'd love to go out and be pampered, so I can feel alive again.

I can't resist challenging a man, even though I'm in a relationship. No offense intended, but it's just my nature. If you're interested, you can challenge me.