Lovely mom wants a sexdate

I don't mind a little excitement. I've had plenty of boyfriends, but none want to hurt me, so they don't accommodate my desires. They just can't seem to grasp that I enjoy the pain and that it actually makes me hot. What man wants to come and hurt me a little?

I'm still a bit unsure about whether I should do this, but I can't keep going like this. My husband and I, it's not working between the sheets anymore. We still fool around sometimes, but it's never enjoyable. And I miss good sex. That's why I'd like to do it with someone else. Secretly, though; I can't bear the thought of it getting out. What do you think?

I went to the sex shop today and picked up quite a few more toys to add to my collection. Before I use them, I'd like a good man to help me, because there are some toys I can't use without you.

Yes, you might not believe this, but I'm seriously lacking. I've mentioned it several times, but it's not improving. OK, I'll do things differently and find a nice guy online who can give me what I want, as often as I want. Every day might not be possible, but at least three or four times a week.