Young mature wants to date a man

I'm looking for someone who can and wants to introduce me to the world of BDSM. I have a huge urge for it and have been trying to suppress it for ages. I finally want to give in.

My life does have a certain shape, but sometimes I wonder if I should be satisfied with it? Shouldn't I want more out of life?

How strict are you? In real life, I'm a manager and have to manage people all day long. At home, it's not much better. I'd like to be managed sometimes, too. To be told what to do. By a strict husband. Mine can't do that, so someone else has to. So, that's why I'm asking: how strict are you?

Actually, I've never really had a serious relationship, just a few casual dates, and so far, that's been great. But now I'm curious to see what it's like. We don't have to move in together right away, but I'm looking for some fun and camaraderie together.