Experienced mother wants to fuck

I've had enough of acting crazy now. Ending up drunk in bed every night, completely unsure if I'm even alive. No, I don't need that anymore. Sitting on the couch every night, drowsy, isn't it either, but I'm sure there's a middle ground to be found.

From a suffocating relationship with my parents, I've moved into a suffocating relationship with my boyfriend. Stupid, but that's the way it is; I'm making the best of it. I'm looking for sex elsewhere now. Very secretly, though, because he's keeping a close eye on me, but that also makes it quite exciting...

I sometimes enjoy dressing a little provocatively; it makes me feel feminine. It's fun to go out in a nice outfit. I'm looking for someone who also enjoys going out and having a good time. Preferably together.

A true flirt, that's what I am through and through, but it doesn't go any further than that. Even though I get tired of rubbing my own clit, I've never dared to take the next step and just boldly approach a man and ask if he'd like to share the sheets with me. Now that I've registered here, I don't dare to take that step either, so are you bold enough to make the first move?