Excited mature wants to date a man

My boyfriend is always very calm and considerate towards other people. Once the door is closed and the people are gone, his inner beast comes out and he burns me down to my shoelaces. I can't stand this much longer. Would you give me a hand and show me the good things in life again?

Oh, I know I'm not supposed to cheat on my boyfriend, but he even forgets my birthday! I'm quite appreciative of a little gift! But if he won't even do that for me, I don't know why I should bother trying to keep him happy in our bedroom! I'd rather be pampered by a man who actually respects me. I'm waiting for you!

Sometimes I'm very childish. Sometimes I'm very serious. If you know how to say and do the right things, I'm a huge sex animal. You can have it any way you want.

I really hope I can find a man here who's more sociable than my husband. My husband is grumpy every day, and he won't say why. He says it has nothing to do with me. Yet he keeps avoiding me. I don't understand it and feel so lonely.