Excited mother wants to have sex

Many men are put off by my appearance, but I'm actually a very vulnerable woman. I've been seriously taken advantage of, and I want to be appreciated for once.

I love romance, beautiful lingerie, rose petals, candles, treating each other tenderly, massages, taking time for each other, and being kind to each other. Are there any men who still believe in romance?

You know what I find exciting and what I really want to do? Meeting up with a man I've never met. For example, we might agree that I'll go grocery shopping, and then you'll suddenly be waiting in the parking lot, and I'll pick you up. We'll do it in a secluded spot in the car, and then I'll drop you off back at the parking lot. That's my ultimate fantasy. Will you make it come true?

I don't mind a little excitement. I've had plenty of boyfriends, but none want to hurt me, so they don't accommodate my desires. They just can't seem to grasp that I enjoy the pain and that it actually makes me hot. What man wants to come and hurt me a little?