Experienced mother wants to fuck

I was raised strictly religious, and because of that, I'm at a disadvantage when it comes to sex. I'm not interested in religion anymore and I'd like to gain some experience. I want to know what feels good and what doesn't, and how to achieve orgasm.

I've been trying to take a relationship to the next level for a long time, so I'm asking you this: If a man doesn't want to live together after years, are you just there for convenience?

I sometimes hear that anal sex is painful, but I'd still like to give it a try. After all, you have to try everything once.

I really want to find someone to have some fun with because it's been way too long. I love S&M and enjoy using toys. I'm looking for someone who's also interested and knows what they're doing in that area.